Direction

I use to play the paino- play being used loosely. My younger brother and I would fight over whoever went first because neither of us had practice and neither wanted to play for Mr. Turner. I had a bad habit of not watching the music (or the director) when I should have. Instead I would watch my figures, which were no help at all.

In the 15 plus years I looked at music, two of the biggest issues in music are the rest and the counting. For some reason, people like to stop counting when they get to a rest. They (okay I) didn't always understand that the rest sometimes help the drama of the next notes or that there is still music being made.

This week has been a challenging one at best. I have been wondering what I am doing and why I feel like God is pausing. I want to rush ahead, skip the counting and start playing again. I want to figure out my role and do it well. However, I am at a rest.

The biggest part of the rest is watching the director for when to come in again. I guess this is what I have to learn. I rush ahead, stop counting, look at my figures, start to play when I am suppose to be silent and then look down, knowing that I have failed to practice. But the God comes over, lefts my head and looks at me with love. He says "Watch Me. I am directing your life. Keep counting. You may not hear music in the rest- but there is music being made and it pleasing Me."